"Something within my body, a sense which I’d NEVER listened to before, was telling me to stop, look at my life and choose what I want."

Chaundra Johnson

When I decided to attend Wings and hopefully find myself again, I was fixed on leaving my husband. I’d always been the type of person who looked at the “greener pastures” and couldn’t commit myself to the hard times I’m faced with in my marriage. I didn’t realize that commitment was my flaw, until I attended PES.

PES assisted me to see one of the patterns that had been a barrier in my life. As soon as I realized that was my pattern, I knew I had control over changing it. I knew I wanted stability for my children as well as happiness within my own path of life.

When I got home from PES, I sat down and wrote a letter to my husband. The letter read that I was leaving, I apologized for all the ups and downs within my emotions and I didn’t want to hurt him anymore. Half way through rereading my letter, I closed my eyes and pictured my life without Jake, without the bond of our family, without the annoying times, without the amazing times and without family. I couldn’t do it. Something within my body, a sense which I’d NEVER listened to before, was telling me to stop, look at my life and choose what I want. That night, I chose to tell my husband about the goodbye letter, I also chose to tell him that I couldn’t think of anyone else I’d rather overcome obstacles through our marriage with.

Our bond as a family, as lovers and my bond within myself have never been stronger.

Chaundra Johnson